My ideal week is easy to describe in one word.... peaceful. I'd start out on a beautiful Sunday morning with some coffee on the front porch with my dogs. They like to lay in front of me and keep an eye on the bad guys. This is followed by breakfast as I make a list of the things i want to do (but never will) such paint, redecorate, read an entire book. Whatever I aspire to do, I aspire to do it alone. Rarely do I want company. I'd like to go through the entire week without seeing another soul except my family and I'd be happy.  I try not to have more than one outing in a day, more than two days a week, not including weekends. Weekends are for my husband. he likes to GO and DO, so I save my energy for him, and he makes it fun.Usually. Monday through Friday would be quiet, calm and serene with some cooking, cleaning, reading, plant conversations... while Saturday and Sunday we drive around, go to the beach for coffee, yardsales, shopping, visiting, talking. Honestly I have a charmed life because I get to choose what I do and dont do every day and I am so fortunate.

The seasons are changing, autumn is in the air. Its more enjoyable to spend time outside with the cooler temps and the changing leaves, though every season has its highlights.

Easter Sunday 2018

Today...actually the entire weekend, have probably been a couple of the most trying days in the last several years. I wish I could talk about it, but to protect the involved person's privacy, I cannot.  I am so, so stressed, stretched tight as a drum and I am afraid my head is going to explode. I really cannot take much more of this, though I have been enduring it for years. There is just nothing I can do that is going to do any good,  I feel so helpless as the stress piles up around me with no end in sight. And this is nothing compared to the stress and anxiety the other person is going through. Its killing the both of us.

March 15th "Low Angle"

Missed a day yesterday, but no worries. :) Its been a usual busy week with the renovations and work stuff commanding most of my time. On the plus side I went to the gym twice this week, as scheduled! My daughter and I have also done some exercises at home every day. I'm not trying to lose weight, I'm just trying to stay mobile as I get older. My back and hips are weak and my balance is really...off. I know alittle bit of elliptical will go a long way. :)

Today's topic is "Low Angle". I feel this is maybe open to interpretation, I'm not sure of how to take a low angle pic so I just went with what I thought was accurate.

I love this little winged pig!!

I just can't concentrate tonight...too much noise and my head is maxed out from a busy, overly full day. Peace out.

March 13th "Childhoot Memory"

This was a tough topic for me because I was hard pressed to think of a positive thing to say about my childhood. I was a sensitive child with a mother who was very sick and a father who was rather indifferent. I know without a doubt that they did the best they could at the time with what they were equipped with, and I'm not going to go into details except to say I suffered with debilitating anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember.

Fast forward to the year 1987. Even typing the year makes me smile. :) That's the year my son was born and I became a mom. I was only 19, still a kid.... a very naive, impressionable, immature, ignorant kid. But when I came home with this baby who needed me (after a few weeks of being completely overwhelmed) I was totally and permanently in love.

                                                           He is the moon and the stars.


It's funny.... before my son was born, the sky was blue and the grass was green. As soon as he was in my arms the sky was BLUE!! and the grass was GREEN!! Everything in my world was enhanced and amplified and so, so vibrant and alive. But still I struggled, as most new, young moms do. During his six week check up, I struggled with his heavy car seat and diaper bag as he screamed and cried and wailed all through the parking lot and waiting room. I was nervous and stressed and I very nearly dropped him. I silently cried as he cried while waiting our turn to be called. The pediatrician, I have forgotten her name, said to me, "You're doing a great job." and that little sentence turned my life around and I began to feel like I really was a good mom. And that is what I strove to be, every day since that moment.

March 12th "Random Body Part"

Today was a day where nothing went according to plan. I am a person who thrives on routine. I expect it and I absolutely die when a monkey wrench gets tossed into my day. When I arrived to work today my co-worker arrived, still sick with the horrible crud she had last week. This has been an awful flu season. I felt so bad for her....not only is she ill, but she has two small children and they are likely sick or going to be sick in the near future. Poor guys. :(  So I worked alone today, which is manageable. I found out our receptionist/assistant to the director is leaving this summer. I'm so sad! I really like her and I will miss her greatly.  She is right though...the drama is too deep.

I really love my job, Its a fun and supportive place to work.  I feel a deep sense of commitment to the community I work for, (I am a caregiver/med tech at an assisted living community) I take my responsibility seriously, the people who live there are like my family, especially since most of my family is either far away or deceased. On the topic of staff turnover, we have had a complete change in management in the past 6 months and it is unsettling. I have considered leaving several times myself, but that sense of commitment hits and I am probably not going anywhere. Anyway I have high hopes for our new Director, I think things are going to be fine once he/we get the kinks worked out.

In other news, I have felt super nauseous and tired lately, so I've been trying yo improve my diet by eating more low carb for the past few days. I just now ate a cookie and I feel sooo gross. I may be onto something lol

Today's topic is Random Body Part!  My husband just took this sweet pic of our dog Morgan leaning into his hand.  So sweet!

March 11th "Any Book"

What a whirlwind weekend! I got the large flowerpots cleaned out and replanted, and we started in on the flowerbeds. Spring is so exciting. :)

I missed yesterday's assignment which called for a photo of a book. So that's what I'm posting today.

This is my favorite book. Every poem is so enchanting, either witty, sorrowful, exciting, romantic, and all lovely.

I really enjoy this book. It is falling apart at the spine, and the pages are brittle and fragile, but every so often when I have a few minutes to spare, I'll open it up and read a poem. Its almost therapeutic.

I used to read for hours at a time, but over the last 5-8 years or so I seem to have lost my focus and I can't sit still and look at a book, or watch a movie. So I stay busy. :)

March 9th "Nighttime Lights"

Had a busy but productive day with my daughter. That's all I'm going to say about that. ;)

Today's topic of photography is Nighttime Lights. How fun! We fortunately has some clear-ish skies today, actually saw some sun, which made for some pretty sunset pics.

I love love love watching the sky at dusk. Some day I am just going to be still and SEE the sky, observe the changes in the light. Its beautiful.

Tomorrow I'm helping a friend paint her kitchen, my husband and daughter are continuing the work of replacing the wood floors in the house. Here's to a low stress day. :)